Today is the 5 year anniversary of mom's death. It blows me away that it's been that long. Colton was just 4 mths old and I can't help to think what she would think of him now. She so wanted a grandkid and I will be forever grateful that she was there when I had him. I struggle daily to go on without her. My mom for so many years was my life and I still struggle with finding my new purspose. I am such a "caregiver" and for so many years I feel like I put life on hold to take care of mom. Now I am a mom and stive everyday to be the mom that I think I should be. I struggle and have lots to improve on, but only hope that someday Colton will love and respect and look up to me like I did my mom. She truly loved everybody. She saw the good in all and that's something I need to work on. What a great person she was and will continue to be in my life.